In two weeks I am running the Hottest 1/2 Marathon in Dallas. The race is paid for, the hotel is paid for, and the plans are made.
This will be my second half marathon, the first being the Decker Challenge.
When I signed up for it months ago I felt myself right on track for training for it, and I felt like my running injury free was finally happening. I felt good about it, not PR good, but I figured I would be up to over 10 mile long runs and be able to at least complete it.
Now I just don't know.
The most mileage I have completed non-stop was the Toughest 10K in Lampasas. The most mileage I have done in a day is 8 something. Miles I have run this week....Almost 1. Yep, one whole mile since last Saturday.
Ever since the Toughest 10K my back and hips have been touch and go. And I felt some tightness in my calves...I felt some tweaks in my shins....So, to be smart I did yoga two times last week....and after Vern's No Frill last Saturday my back was killing me......so.....I decided to take a week off from running. I did my workouts at Dane's Monday, Wednesday, and Friday....and on Tuesday and Thursday I did yoga. I only ran in the workouts, which totaled about a mile between Monday and Friday.
My back was still hurting mid week, as well as my hips. So I finally broke down and made an appointment with Ron V. a highly recommended massage therapist. More on this later....back to the 1/2....
I am going to try an easy 3 mile run tomorrow and see how I feel. I don't think I am going to be up to running 13 miles or even 10 within 2 weeks. And I don't mean this in offense to anyone....but I am not a walker. I don't want to go to that race and end up walking most of it. It would kill me mentally. I also know that running slow hurts more sometimes. These are all the things that ran through my mind...
I can run as far as I can and then walk the rest.
I can run a mile, walk a mile.
I can run it really slow
I can run it really fast and kill my body
I can not go at all
I still haven't truly decided what I am going to do. I also am running this with my friend Jessica, so that puts a little more pressure on me to go since we are splitting hotel, etc...
Maybe I will just go and cheer her on?
To say the least I am disappointed. I feel like though I am stronger from all the cross training at Dane's, my body still doesn't like me upping the miles. (Even though I felt like I was being smart about it.) I am not back where I was physically in January when I wasn't able to run before, but I feel on the verge of it and it's really upsetting.
I went to Ron V. today and he really dug out my pelvis area, and lower back. He also noticed I am really tight in my rib cage which could be contributing to the pain in my lower back. I do not like massage as a general rule, BUT I could have had him do that all day. My lower back and glute area is so tight and even though it hurt a lot, it felt so good to have someone get in there and release some of the tightness. He said I am really lacking mobility in my pelvis and hips because of the tightness of the muscles. I am going to try and go back to him again in a couple weeks. I am hoping it helps.
As for the 1/2, I will make a decision in the next week what to do...wish me luck on my 3 miles tomorrow!
I hope everyone has a great weekend!
Friday, July 27, 2012
Thursday, July 26, 2012
Wednesday, July 25, 2012
Hurts So Bad it Feels Good
The AMAZING Rumble Roller...
They had one of these at Dane's this morning and I had to try it. WOW, I am telling you this is the best roller I have ever used. I have to get one!
Tuesday, July 24, 2012
Ice, Roll, Repeat
The weekend started out with Vern's No Frill 5K...Sean's first 5K!
We met up with Jessica and her friend Marissa...
I am so happy my husband is running and I hope this is one of many races to come!
After the race Jessica, Marissa, and I ran the course one more time for a total of 7.2 miles.
As I mentioned awhile back I have needed to spend some more time with my two ponies. First because they need ride time to be finished and completely broke, and secondly because I would like to sell one, and it would be easier if he was completely broke and ride able. So, I have committed to 3 days a week for 90 days.
Sunday I rode both of them and Phene got to ride also which she loves!
I was happy to be back in the saddle and really enjoyed being out there with them.
AND...I know this might not sound too exciting to some of you, but I finally found a place to ride across the street where we have enough room to practice cantering. I wish I had a video (and I will try to get one) of how fast a pony can trot before breaking in to a canter. I am sure I look ridiculous bouncing all over the place trying to hold on.
All in all it was a nice relaxing weekend.
Workout plans for this week...
Ughhhh....don't know where to start on this one.
My back and my hip are acting up again.....so.....
Monday - Dane's Lower Body Fusion (done)
Tuesday - P90x Yoga for 45 min (done)
Wednesday - Dane's Core Fusion
Thursday - P90X Yoga for 45 min
Friday - Dane's Upper Body Fusion
Saturday - ?
Sunday - ?
As you can see none of my workouts include running :(
I am giving my hips and back a break this week in hope that it will help my hips/back recover from whatever is happening.
Friday I have an Appointment with a well recommended sports massage guy and I am hoping he can help a little. Meanwhile I am icing and rolling. Icing, rolling, icing, rolling.
I hope you all have a great week!
Tuesday, July 17, 2012
My Life From My Cell Phone
Here is a chronicle of my life lately via my cell phone
Zydeco New Orleans Shaved Ice....it's so good!
Phene got to go to In and Out in Dallas with Sean...I was so jealous!
Lexie is having to come to work with me more, since I can't trust her not to jump fence and trash house.
The other day we had such a BIG storm. You can't tell, but in this first picture, there is funnel shaped cloud. Thank goodness it broke up really fast....tornado's scare us.
Phene can ride her big girl bike with training wheels!
Sean's new favorite drink...Corona-rita
We have been loving our local splash pad!
We just started Game of Thrones Season 2...LOVE it!
And last but not least.....
My mom got Phene a pig that poops jelly beans...fun!
Monday, July 16, 2012
It's All in the Name: A Recap
When I signed up for the Toughest 10K in Texas last year, I didn't think much of the name. It was a pretty cheap race, and about 1/2 hour from my house, so I figured why not?
I don't remember much of last year's race. It was tough....it was hot, at some point in the run I got a little delirious....I won first in my age group and 3rd overall....all in all it was a pretty good race. AND I do remember the hills. I remember them being constant and I remember them being steep. My time was 45:43.
Fast forward to this year....I wasn't looking to win this race, I really just wanted to beat last year's time. Erin and Jessica were running it this year so I knew it would be nice to see some familiar faces there. (And Dan Erin's husband decided to run it also)
We got there about an hour before the race and picked up our packets and started getting ready. We warmed up with a slow mile and then sat down for some stretching and rolling.
It was really nice out...probably around 75 degrees. I knew it would be warming up fast though and I could already feel the humidity!
8am came and we were off....
I started out with a pretty fast first mile...Here are my race splits:
Mile 1: 7:12
Mile 2: 7:44
Mile 3: 7:40
Mile 4: 7:48
Mile 5: 7:47
Mile 6: 6:42
Total time: 44:56
My garmin said 5.9 miles.
BUT this was the same distance I ran last year...
So I met my goal and did better than last years time by almost a minute!
After Mile 1 is where the hills begin so you can see I start really slowing down. The hills in this race are brutal! You get up one and then there is another. At mile 3 I started really struggling. I wasn't being able to catch my breath and I just felt out of it. I took half a shot block and told myself that if I didn't feel better in the next mile I would walk. That negative "you need to stop now your lungs are going to explode!" voice was screaming in my ear. It was telling me it would be ok to walk, no one would really care if I didn't do as well as last year, etc...
I am so glad I pushed through this hard part of this run....because the last miles, though not super easy, were definitely better.
Here I am coming in to the finish line! I was so happy it was over and at that point I told myself I would never run this race again...EVER!
(Of course I have to next year though, so I can beat this year's time!)
Erin won 2nd place and Jessica finished first in her age group!
I was so glad to have my friends there!
Thanks to Sean for being there to support me at all my races. And of course little Phene!
I felt a little sore for the rest of the day but all in all I didn't have too much pain. I did yoga yesterday which I think really helped.
This race is so perfectly named...it really is the Toughest 10K in Texas!
I don't remember much of last year's race. It was tough....it was hot, at some point in the run I got a little delirious....I won first in my age group and 3rd overall....all in all it was a pretty good race. AND I do remember the hills. I remember them being constant and I remember them being steep. My time was 45:43.
Fast forward to this year....I wasn't looking to win this race, I really just wanted to beat last year's time. Erin and Jessica were running it this year so I knew it would be nice to see some familiar faces there. (And Dan Erin's husband decided to run it also)
We got there about an hour before the race and picked up our packets and started getting ready. We warmed up with a slow mile and then sat down for some stretching and rolling.
Mile 1: 7:12
Mile 2: 7:44
Mile 3: 7:40
Mile 4: 7:48
Mile 5: 7:47
Mile 6: 6:42
Total time: 44:56
My garmin said 5.9 miles.
BUT this was the same distance I ran last year...
So I met my goal and did better than last years time by almost a minute!
After Mile 1 is where the hills begin so you can see I start really slowing down. The hills in this race are brutal! You get up one and then there is another. At mile 3 I started really struggling. I wasn't being able to catch my breath and I just felt out of it. I took half a shot block and told myself that if I didn't feel better in the next mile I would walk. That negative "you need to stop now your lungs are going to explode!" voice was screaming in my ear. It was telling me it would be ok to walk, no one would really care if I didn't do as well as last year, etc...
I am so glad I pushed through this hard part of this run....because the last miles, though not super easy, were definitely better.
Here I am coming in to the finish line! I was so happy it was over and at that point I told myself I would never run this race again...EVER!
(Of course I have to next year though, so I can beat this year's time!)
Erin won 2nd place and Jessica finished first in her age group!
I was so glad to have my friends there!
Thanks to Sean for being there to support me at all my races. And of course little Phene!
I felt a little sore for the rest of the day but all in all I didn't have too much pain. I did yoga yesterday which I think really helped.
This race is so perfectly named...it really is the Toughest 10K in Texas!
Friday, July 13, 2012
Toenails, Pygmies, and a Race
*Tomorrow is the Toughest 10K in Lampasas. To say the least I am stressing and I just need to calm down. I was looking at my monthly mileage in and around July 2011 and I am about up to that same mileage this month.
The difference this year is that I am doing strength training at Dane's. So my core, arms, legs, are in great shape and I am a different, but better runner.
My time last year was 45:43 and here is last year's recap.
We all have that self doubt in our heads, and after injury that voice speaks a little louder. I just need to believe in myself and my abilities, and one thing I do know is that I am a fairly good racer. Not as fast as some, but I don't give up and I can bring the stamina and mental strength when I need it.
One thing I am happy about it is that Erin and Jessica will be there, and if nothing else it will be good to be running with friends!
*So the last 3 days in a row our new puppy has jumped the dog fence that separates them from the entire house when we are at work. Each day when I have got home there has been crap and pee all over the house. She has stepped in it, and it literally has been all over the floors. Not to mention all the paper, trash, and kids toys she has chewed in to a million pieces. So, each day I have come home and had to spend 2 hours (I am not exaggerating on the time) cleaning, mopping, etc....It has been draining. Each day I tried to rig something so she couldn't get over, but each day she did. So, today I knew I couldn't take another day of cleaning so she came to work with me. This weekend, Sean and I will have to figure something out so she can't get over it.
What makes this especially trying is that Sean brought the kids to his mom's house and they have been gone all week. So, this was supposed to be my week to relax....and there was not much relaxing going on at the house. Between the cleaning, my anger at her, and my anxiety during the day worrying about what she is getting in to....to say the least I have been stressed.
*Disappointment......The other day after work I met up with some ladies for dinner. I had some time to kill before meeting with them so I went to Barnes and Noble and got a coffee and sat down and read for awhile. One of my favorite authors, Chuck Palahniuk has come out with a few books in the last couple years that I haven't had a chance to read so I thought this would be a perefect oppurtunity to check them out! I grabbed Pygmy and Tell All.
Pygmy is an odd book. It's written almost in it's own language, much like Clockwork Orange. And I figured the more I read, the easier it would be for me to start understanding the "speak". After a few chapters I realized that I wasn't going to get used to it, and that it was a little too graphic for me. I am all about murder, blood, guts, and weird scenarios...Heck, Chuck P. is a little twisted to say the least! This book was too much, and I was so disappointed! Either I have grown up and am a little more prude (for lack of a better word), or this book was just too graphic...I don't know which one it was.
Tell All....well I read about 3 chapters and this wasn't graphic, but boy was it confusing. I just wasn't understanding who was narrating the story...and even what the story was about.
I was SO disappointed in these two books. They were nothing like the books I love by Chuck P. like Fight Club and Survivor!
I did read a little of the first Game of Thrones and I think I might just buy it! We are on to the second season of the show now, and I am loving it! The book seemed well written and perhaps it will give me a little more insight in to the characters and story.
*Earlier this week my frech press broke, so I have had to buy coffee all week. I really hate spending money on coffee....it's such a waste! This weekend I am going to go buy a new one.
*Oh and one last thing. So, as I am typing this one of my co-workers is trimming his fingernails...and his toenails!!! Do you believe it??!!
The difference this year is that I am doing strength training at Dane's. So my core, arms, legs, are in great shape and I am a different, but better runner.
My time last year was 45:43 and here is last year's recap.
We all have that self doubt in our heads, and after injury that voice speaks a little louder. I just need to believe in myself and my abilities, and one thing I do know is that I am a fairly good racer. Not as fast as some, but I don't give up and I can bring the stamina and mental strength when I need it.
One thing I am happy about it is that Erin and Jessica will be there, and if nothing else it will be good to be running with friends!
*So the last 3 days in a row our new puppy has jumped the dog fence that separates them from the entire house when we are at work. Each day when I have got home there has been crap and pee all over the house. She has stepped in it, and it literally has been all over the floors. Not to mention all the paper, trash, and kids toys she has chewed in to a million pieces. So, each day I have come home and had to spend 2 hours (I am not exaggerating on the time) cleaning, mopping, etc....It has been draining. Each day I tried to rig something so she couldn't get over, but each day she did. So, today I knew I couldn't take another day of cleaning so she came to work with me. This weekend, Sean and I will have to figure something out so she can't get over it.
What makes this especially trying is that Sean brought the kids to his mom's house and they have been gone all week. So, this was supposed to be my week to relax....and there was not much relaxing going on at the house. Between the cleaning, my anger at her, and my anxiety during the day worrying about what she is getting in to....to say the least I have been stressed.
*Disappointment......The other day after work I met up with some ladies for dinner. I had some time to kill before meeting with them so I went to Barnes and Noble and got a coffee and sat down and read for awhile. One of my favorite authors, Chuck Palahniuk has come out with a few books in the last couple years that I haven't had a chance to read so I thought this would be a perefect oppurtunity to check them out! I grabbed Pygmy and Tell All.
Pygmy is an odd book. It's written almost in it's own language, much like Clockwork Orange. And I figured the more I read, the easier it would be for me to start understanding the "speak". After a few chapters I realized that I wasn't going to get used to it, and that it was a little too graphic for me. I am all about murder, blood, guts, and weird scenarios...Heck, Chuck P. is a little twisted to say the least! This book was too much, and I was so disappointed! Either I have grown up and am a little more prude (for lack of a better word), or this book was just too graphic...I don't know which one it was.
Tell All....well I read about 3 chapters and this wasn't graphic, but boy was it confusing. I just wasn't understanding who was narrating the story...and even what the story was about.
I was SO disappointed in these two books. They were nothing like the books I love by Chuck P. like Fight Club and Survivor!
I did read a little of the first Game of Thrones and I think I might just buy it! We are on to the second season of the show now, and I am loving it! The book seemed well written and perhaps it will give me a little more insight in to the characters and story.
*Earlier this week my frech press broke, so I have had to buy coffee all week. I really hate spending money on coffee....it's such a waste! This weekend I am going to go buy a new one.
*Oh and one last thing. So, as I am typing this one of my co-workers is trimming his fingernails...and his toenails!!! Do you believe it??!!
Tuesday, July 10, 2012
Monday, July 9, 2012
Pull Yourself Up By Your Boot Straps
*Last night we watched part of the Biggest Loser...it's not the main show, with a whole bunch of different people, but the show with just one person's transformation. (Sorry, I can't remember the name)
It was about the girl who was 20 and lived with her mom. And though I feel like she genuinely tried to lose weight, and you could see that she was really pushing herself in the workouts. I felt like she was blaming everyone else. A big part of the show was her complaining about her mother and sisters having junk food in the house and how they were so unsupportive.
I understand that it could be tempting to eat, but I really think that willpower has to be part of the weight loss process. There will always be opportunities to eat junk food. And I think there comes a point where you have to take responsibility for yourself. It doesn't matter if your mother treats you this way, or your dad abandoned you....or whatever struggle it is you blame for your problems. Everyone has struggles....everyone has issues. I think it comes down to how you handle it. Do you cry "woe is me" and wallow in it? Or do you pick yourself up and live your life to the best of your ability?
I have spent a fair share of my life wallowing, and there was not one benefit to it. It wasn't until I took responsibility and faced things head on without blame that I began to feel better, and like magic the situations in my life improved in almost every aspect.
I'm not perfect and I still have bad days, and bad moments. But I like to think I try for the
most part to take responsibility for my actions and problems.
I was so happy for this girl that she lost the weight and she stuck with the year program, but I just felt sad for her and so disappointed with the trainer that he let her go on and on blaming everyone.
*Saturday morning I had a great run with Erin and Brenda in Georgetown. We did an easy 6 mile loop at about an 8:30 pace. (I should clarify that I ran 6 miles and they continued on for an impressive 16+ miles!) I love running with these two, and it made me so appreciative for the friends I have met through running.
*My back has been really sore lately. I think I need to take time for some yoga this week or I am going to hate myself for not heeding the signs that my back is going out :(
Workout Plans for this week:
Monday - Danes Lower Body + 2 mile run
Tuesday - Run Group 6 miles
Wednesday - Dane's Core Fusion + 2 mile run
Thursday - Dane's Upper Body Fusion + 2 mile run + Dane's Yoga if I have time
Friday - Rest Day
Saturday - the 10k from hell AKA The Toughest 10K in Texas
I hope all of you have a great week!
It was about the girl who was 20 and lived with her mom. And though I feel like she genuinely tried to lose weight, and you could see that she was really pushing herself in the workouts. I felt like she was blaming everyone else. A big part of the show was her complaining about her mother and sisters having junk food in the house and how they were so unsupportive.
I understand that it could be tempting to eat, but I really think that willpower has to be part of the weight loss process. There will always be opportunities to eat junk food. And I think there comes a point where you have to take responsibility for yourself. It doesn't matter if your mother treats you this way, or your dad abandoned you....or whatever struggle it is you blame for your problems. Everyone has struggles....everyone has issues. I think it comes down to how you handle it. Do you cry "woe is me" and wallow in it? Or do you pick yourself up and live your life to the best of your ability?
I have spent a fair share of my life wallowing, and there was not one benefit to it. It wasn't until I took responsibility and faced things head on without blame that I began to feel better, and like magic the situations in my life improved in almost every aspect.
I'm not perfect and I still have bad days, and bad moments. But I like to think I try for the
most part to take responsibility for my actions and problems.
I was so happy for this girl that she lost the weight and she stuck with the year program, but I just felt sad for her and so disappointed with the trainer that he let her go on and on blaming everyone.
*Saturday morning I had a great run with Erin and Brenda in Georgetown. We did an easy 6 mile loop at about an 8:30 pace. (I should clarify that I ran 6 miles and they continued on for an impressive 16+ miles!) I love running with these two, and it made me so appreciative for the friends I have met through running.
*My back has been really sore lately. I think I need to take time for some yoga this week or I am going to hate myself for not heeding the signs that my back is going out :(
Workout Plans for this week:
Monday - Danes Lower Body + 2 mile run
Tuesday - Run Group 6 miles
Wednesday - Dane's Core Fusion + 2 mile run
Thursday - Dane's Upper Body Fusion + 2 mile run + Dane's Yoga if I have time
Friday - Rest Day
Saturday - the 10k from hell AKA The Toughest 10K in Texas
I hope all of you have a great week!
Thursday, July 5, 2012
Monday, July 2, 2012
Cheese....Yum!
Ahh weekends...they go by SO fast!
Saturday found me down at Town Lake for an early run with Jessica. Before I got out of the car I looked at the weather....79 degrees and 89% humidity. Summer is here and in full swing!
I was there a little early so I ran a short .89 miles and took some time to roll out and stretch. I am glad I did because my calves have been a little tight lately.
I met up with Jessica at 7 and we ran an easy 6 miles.
Jessica made a good point that we should probably take photos BEFORE running, not after when we are barely breathing and sweating half to death!
I took a quick shower after and worked the rest of the day at a local kids consignment sale to help out the ladies who run it. I was on my feet for 8 hours straight, so to say the least I was exhausted!
Sean took Phene down to Austin to ride the train at Zilker Park....
Sunday Sean and I ran an easy 3 in the morning and spent the rest of the day cleaning house and running errands...nothing exciting.
Workout plans for this week:
Monday - Dane's Lower Body (done)
Tuesday - 1600's with run group -6 miles?
Wednesday - day off of work so maybe yoga?
Thursday - Dane's Lower Body + 2 mile run
Friday - Dane's Upper Body + 2 mile run
Saturday - 6 mile run
Sunday - 3 mile run
Begin rant
Now on to something that is bothering me...or I guess we can call this something that I realized.
Please see pic below.
I am by no means fat...and I consider myself pretty fit.
I barely eat sugar, no candy (or VERY rarely, I am talking maybe a few times a year), no soda, I don't eat tons of processed food, I try to eat a lot of vegetables, I drink a crap-ton of water....All in all I am pretty healthy.
I do deprive myself of things I want or crave. I feel like I am conscious of what I eat.
So, in my mind I think I shouldn't have much fat on my body.
But...I have this middle area that I just can't seem to get rid of. And on this pic, I really see it, and I really don't like it.
My realization was that what I do need to be more watchful of is my portions. I hate dieting, and I refuse to do it, but I know my portion control...well it's out of control.
Sometimes I think that having a child really messed with the way I eat regarding portions. I feel like I ate a lot of everything when I was pregnant, and I continued that for a year after while I breastfed, and after that....well it became a habit of sorts to eat a lot.
I don't want to stress over my weight or a little fat....I hate being that person. But I am not going to deny that I feel self conscious sometimes and I feel frustrated at the same time because I feel like I do the right things for the most part.
For the most part is probably not enough.
Do any of you eat a lot of something you know you probably shouldn't be eating?
I have to say that one of my greatest weakness' is cheese. I eat WAY too much cheese.
End rant
I hope you all have a safe 4th of July!
Saturday found me down at Town Lake for an early run with Jessica. Before I got out of the car I looked at the weather....79 degrees and 89% humidity. Summer is here and in full swing!
I was there a little early so I ran a short .89 miles and took some time to roll out and stretch. I am glad I did because my calves have been a little tight lately.
I met up with Jessica at 7 and we ran an easy 6 miles.
I took a quick shower after and worked the rest of the day at a local kids consignment sale to help out the ladies who run it. I was on my feet for 8 hours straight, so to say the least I was exhausted!
Sean took Phene down to Austin to ride the train at Zilker Park....
Sunday Sean and I ran an easy 3 in the morning and spent the rest of the day cleaning house and running errands...nothing exciting.
Workout plans for this week:
Monday - Dane's Lower Body (done)
Tuesday - 1600's with run group -6 miles?
Wednesday - day off of work so maybe yoga?
Thursday - Dane's Lower Body + 2 mile run
Friday - Dane's Upper Body + 2 mile run
Saturday - 6 mile run
Sunday - 3 mile run
Begin rant
Now on to something that is bothering me...or I guess we can call this something that I realized.
Please see pic below.
(Please excuse my wrinkly elbows)
I was taking some pics of some stuff I am going to sell on ebay this week and I came across this picture while listing...keep in mind that the shirt is a sz 2 which is very tight on me as I usually wear a sz 4. BUT, I see it...do you?I am by no means fat...and I consider myself pretty fit.
I barely eat sugar, no candy (or VERY rarely, I am talking maybe a few times a year), no soda, I don't eat tons of processed food, I try to eat a lot of vegetables, I drink a crap-ton of water....All in all I am pretty healthy.
I do deprive myself of things I want or crave. I feel like I am conscious of what I eat.
So, in my mind I think I shouldn't have much fat on my body.
But...I have this middle area that I just can't seem to get rid of. And on this pic, I really see it, and I really don't like it.
My realization was that what I do need to be more watchful of is my portions. I hate dieting, and I refuse to do it, but I know my portion control...well it's out of control.
Sometimes I think that having a child really messed with the way I eat regarding portions. I feel like I ate a lot of everything when I was pregnant, and I continued that for a year after while I breastfed, and after that....well it became a habit of sorts to eat a lot.
I don't want to stress over my weight or a little fat....I hate being that person. But I am not going to deny that I feel self conscious sometimes and I feel frustrated at the same time because I feel like I do the right things for the most part.
For the most part is probably not enough.
Do any of you eat a lot of something you know you probably shouldn't be eating?
I have to say that one of my greatest weakness' is cheese. I eat WAY too much cheese.
End rant
I hope you all have a safe 4th of July!
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